May I always choose you when my old lovers return. May I remember your nectar when I cannot taste it. May I grovel but know that your hands will come. May I hold your light even when I cannot see you. May your soft tune continue while I am courting the past. May I enter the abyss screaming your name. May I remember to forget myself when the fire begins. May I fight to know you even as the gates are closing. May I rage and in that rage find you. May I drown in fear and in that pool meet you. May we never have to meet again. May you vanish from you.